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I am working my way through an interesting book by Liz Ryan titled Reinvention Roadmap – break the rules to get the job you want & career you deserve. The book is 25 chapters, four parts and really makes you look at yourself.

I have worked my way through chapter 7 and the first part of the book. When I say worked I mean it. This book really makes you think about who you are and the choices you have made. Because let’s face it, we get where we are in life because of the choices we have made. Yes there are somethings that happen to us but it is how we choose to react to those happenings that help define us.

This book has made me think of things I have tried not to think about for many years. It is dredging up old memories, some of them are very painful. Luckily most of them are good memories. They say that time heals all wounds. I am not so sure about that. There are still some people that were so horrible to me as a child that I even now wish nothing but bad luck upon. Unfortunately that says more about me than them. I don’t think about them often so am not wasting much time or energy over them, but if we ever meet in a dark alley . . .

I choose to let it go. I choose to work through this book so I can learn more about myself and really figure out what I want to do. One of the problems I have always had is I score high and pretty evenly across the board on aptitude tests. I am interested in everything. Well everything except westerns, and war movies or horror movies or slime mold or . . . although the how that stuff works is interesting :/ hmmm . . . never mind.

Where was I? Oh yes, I still haven’t figured out what I want to do when I grow up. I hope this book helps me figure that out. When I was a kid I wanted to be a stay-at-home mom with the white picket fence and the cookie baking (yeah I know how cliche). I wanted to be an astronaut (not like we have now I wanted to be on the Enterprise like on Star Trek). I wanted to be an Archeologist digging up past civilizations (me in hot weather? Can you imagine? Me either!) There are a few other things I wanted to be so we will see what I figure out during this reinvention.

One of the best things about now is there are still a lot of things I can be. I don’t have to have picked one thing and do that for the rest of my life. I can reinvent myself as often as I want too.

What new thing would you like to do?

Migraine

I woke up about 2:30 this morning thinking, I am getting a migraine. I knew it was just a matter of time before it became a full blown migraine. As I lay in bed thinking “oh please, no” I could fell it sliding around my head looking for its way in.

Ooooo should I settle in your eye? Oooo this spot on the back of your head is looking particularly vulnerable this morning. While I keep you guessing on where the pain will settle lets get started with the tingly hands  and the numbness in your face. Bwahahahaha

Poor Hubby has to get up so very early anyway and I couldn’t wait I needed help. So I woke him up to get me some Excedrin Migraine medicine. If you take it early enough, before the pain has settled in one place you can stave off the worst of it, most of the time. I usually take two with a Mountain Dew to really kill the pain but I don’t drink very much soda anymore so I don’t have any on hand, I had to just hope the two with some water would take care if it.

I have managed to avoid the worst of the migraine this time. After taking the Excedrin Migraine medicine I slept for 3-4 hours, it has helped. I have the after migraine hangover now. Bending over isn’t an option at the moment, I have that tenderness in the sites where the migraine tried to take hold, and sudden movements are absolute agony but still feel way better than if I had gotten the full blown migraine.

This hangover will pass in the next bunch of hours. If I had gotten the full migraine I would be having pain, puking and light sensitivity today, tomorrow and the next day I would have the hangover and hopefully by the 4th day I am well again.

For me when I get a migraine it is like having a stroke. My face droops on one side, I get tingling and numbness in my hands, the pain is excruciating like someone has taken a spike and driven it into my eye through my head and out the back, then a band feels like it is tightening around my head and if I move my brains will fall on the floor, I become light sensitive and my words don’t work. I know I am on the home stretch and things will start to be less painful when I start to throw up. But while throwing up my brains feel like they are shooting out the top of my head.

A migraine is the worst. I am glad I was able to stave off most of it. It will be a slow careful day for me today. My hope is none of you can relate.

I have hope

I have hope. Even as I sit here with tears running down my face I still have hope. I have to, there isn’t an alternative. Giving up hope means giving up, I am not quite ready to do that.

I will cry and feel sorry for myself for a little while, I will wallow in the pain that comes from being rejected. I will beat myself up and probably whine a lot. I will sit and stare off into space and just be for a while. I might eat some ice cream, although right now I feel more like throwing up.

I will question everyone “What is wrong with me? Why don’t they want me?” Usually people answer “Nothing, nothing is wrong with you.” Right now I don’t solve the problem they think they have.

Later I will start to put it past me. I will wipe my tears, I will quit wallowing in my misery, I will have the ice cream, then I will get on with the search. I will continue to work and hope, there isn’t any other option.

Definition of hope

#hope  #merriamwebster

Happy May, so many fun things happen in May. There is May Day (May 1)

Hooray, Hooray it’s the First of May,

. . .outside begins today!

I guess I won’t say the whole saying, you never know who is reading.  😉

 

Mother’s Day is May 14, always a bittersweet day for me. My Mom has been gone for such a long time so that is the bitter, but my darling girls are doing such a great job as Mom’s and that is the sweet. Being a grandparent is by far the best thing ever.

 

It makes me really sad, the amount things my Mom has missed. A bunch of grandkids, now two handfuls of great-grandkids, weddings, graduations, life, so much life.  None of us know how many days we have in this life. Please try to enjoy something everyday. I know somedays it is very hard to do but please try.

 

The best thing about May is I will get to see everyone of my girls this month. The military is cooperating so far, so we have a bit of ability to plan visits! Let us all hope that things settle down so that we can keep them all.

 

In the mean time I am ever so grateful for modern technology. I can get text messages, phone calls and even video calls from my girls frequently. Things my Mom would have used frequently, I am sure. I talked to my Mom everyday. It has been almost 19 years and I still miss picking up the phone to talk to her.

 

Hug your kids and enjoy this very month.

Hello! This article is about exercise. If you don’t want to hear about what I do, feel free to go to a different one.

I keep my exercise equipment in my living room. Yes I know that is odd. But I have found that when they are in front of me I will use them much more often.

My exercise bike is set up so I can see the TV, my weights, mats, and blocks are in frontIMG_20170426_114940777 of the TV, I have no excuse to not use them.

When I ride the exercise bike I generally try to ride the bike for 20 – 30 minutes. I do this when I want to read a book or watch a show. I average 8-13 miles when I ride. I am working on increasing my pace.

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As you can see I don’t have anything fancy. I have some old school weights with the bars and chucks and I have some newer weights. They range from 3 lbs to 22ish lbs. I have a 10 lb medicine ball.

The colored puzzle pieces make a decent mat for doing cardio. I recommend something like this if you have cement floors like I do. I have a couple yoga mats, some yoga blocks and a towel for extra padding.  I do have a workout ball but don’t use it much, it takes up way too much space.

I am a huge fan of workout videos on YouTube. My favorites come from Fitnessblender.com and Yoga with Adriene both of theses sites share free videos weekly. They do have subscription services if you want them. I personally have not done that. I might some day. Right now there are plenty of videos for me to use for free. Each of them have workouts for beginners to experts and they both encourage you to do the exercises at your comfort level.

Finding a workout that feels good, that makes you feel good and that you can progress while doing is huge. I have really bad knees so these workouts, low impact, strength, flexibility and stretching are so helpful for me. Oh also, WALKING, walking is by far the easiest workout. All you need are feet. 🙂

I hope this helps inspire you to get up and move a little. Remember even if you are moving slowly you are still doing more than those just sitting around.

Happy thoughts for a happy day!

I have been having some really wicked hot flashes. They are noticeable during the day but at night! Holy man it is awful. I have timed them and they come about every 50 minutes. These are not a quick flash and ta-da good to go. No these are full on soaking wet, last a couple minutes hot flashes.

I have done some research and there really isn’t much that can be done. According to the research I can look forward to enjoying this lovely change to my sleeping habits for 4-5 years. Doesn’t that just sound like a fun time to you? Yeah I am just jumping for joy over this turn of events.

I have read that there are drugs you can take but the side effects sound way worse than the hot flashes. I have looked at can trigger them. Coffee, smoking, alcohol, being black, and being overweight make you more susceptible to hot flashes. I don’t drink coffee ever, I rarely drink alcohol anymore, I have never smoked nor been black, that leaves being overweight. I am that but I know thin people who have hot flashes, so I think that is just another way to hammer at a woman’s weight.

Hot flashes are a great way to lose water weight! I know that I can lose more than 2 pounds a night just in sweat. I can’t imagine poor hubby having to sleep next to the pool that is my side of the bed. Poor guy.

Hot flashes are not for the faint of heart. Besides one minute needing to rip all of your clothes off and then freezing as the sweat dries, there is the dilemma of pajamas or no pajamas. If you wear them then you have to take them off frequently or they are soaking wet. If you don’t wear them then when you have visitors . . .

So I got sidelined by a hot flash, I have to go change my clothes.

#hotflashes

 

It has been a long time since I posted. So much has changed. Baby O is now 5 and has been joined by M who is an 18 month old sassy pants. Air Force Girl’s baby H is 3 and now has a brand new sibling HL. Navy girl is expecting baby Hildegarde in July and has a bonus boy E. Poor E, 5 little girls to follow him around. Hubby and I are doing fine. Hopefully there won’t be any deployments for a while.

I was searching for this blog and the one that came up is “If at first you do succeed, try not to look surprised” I have included a link to the original blog below. It was a very timely find. I have been struggling lately. I was terminated from my job in March. It was such a blow. I still do not understand why. I thought I was doing a good job. But evidently the owner of the company did not agree. It is so hard to overcome this kind of set back. I am actively searching for a new position.

Job hunting sucks. We all know this. I am trying to figure out where to go from here. One of the things I am going to try to do is write more often. I need to get my head wrapped around what happened. One thing I do know is how much I have learned in the last couple of years. That is huge. Continuing to learn new things is so important. I also think if I write it will help stave off the funk I can feel calling to me.

As the last line of the original blog says “everything ventured, everything gained.” Here’s to not giving up.

Happy thoughts for a happy day!

https://militarymommie.wordpress.com/tag/if-at-first-you-do-succeed-try-not-to-look-surprised/

#anewadventruebegins  #unemployed

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