Archive for March, 2013

I dislike job hunting. It is a popularity contest in the worst way. It looks at not just what you look like but also who you are.  You show up to the interview dressed in your work life best, trying to look like what they think they want. You trot out your resume or CV and hope you have tailored it to what they think they are looking for.

You talk to them you are in your workday best voice on your workday best behavior, when what you want to do is just say “hire me damn it. You won’t regret it.” But you can’t say that. Not in those words anyway. “Hire me, let me do my job, I am very good at it.”

Instead you jump through their hoops, and participate in their dog and pony shows and hope and pray that they see your value. It is so hard to do. It is so hard to stay positive and focused, but you do because the alternative is nothing, and having nothing to do, no place to go, no identity . . . sucks.

The good news is at least they are calling and calling means that at some point there will be a job. The process is still painful.

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Today is International Women’s Day. A celebration of women’s economic, health and livelihood contributions or something like that. So Happy Women’s Day.

I am at that age where menopause is something that is becoming a fact of life. Unfortunately because my mother died in 1998 I can’t ask her questions about what to expect. Many of my friends have had hysterectomies so they aren’t going through it “naturally” so I can’t ask them either.  As usual I have done research on it but aside from a list of possible symptoms and the recommendation to eat things with soy they really haven’t been helpful.

This list copied from the A.D.A.M. Medical Encyclopedia on the National Institute of Health website (link listed below):

Common symptoms of menopause include:

  • Menstrual periods that occur less often and eventually stop
  • Heart pounding or racing
  • Hot flashes, usually worst during the first 1 – 2 years
  • Night sweats
  • Skin flushing
  • Sleeping problems (insomnia)

Other symptoms of menopause may include:

  • Decreased interest in sex, possibly decreased response to sexual stimulation
  • Forgetfulness (in some women)
  • Headaches
  • Mood swings including irritability, depression, and anxiety
  • Urine leakage
  • Vaginal dryness and painful sexual intercourse
  • Vaginal infections
  • Joint aches and pains
  • Irregular heartbeat (palpitations)


Now I have had hot flashes for 15 years and night sweats since I was a kid so those are no big deal. I am probably the hottest person you will ever meet. I melt chocolate just by touching it. And I sleep a lot so in that way I am lucky, I also have a bunch of the other symptoms too. I can deal with most of them. Although the mood swings suck, there are days when I can’t stand myself let alone others. So, sorry about that in advance.


What I want to know is what to expect with my periods. Do they get lighter? Do they just gradually taper off or do they stay the same but become less frequent, more frequent, what happens? Well I guess we will find out slowly over time. Times like this it would be much easier if my mom were here to talk to.






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